Sunday, July 5, 2009

One Year Later!

Fourth of July 2008 was a weird one....Hubby had recently returned from Iraq (to which I was abundantly grateful), we were recovering emotionally from a failed adoption ((hubby was still in Iraq) I had that sweet baby for 5 days...home from the hospital...when the birth-mother changed her mind), we were on infertility meds yet again (for the umpteenth time in 5 years) and my cycle had just started which meant that we were not pregnant once again. I was missing my family and overwhelmed with the prospects/decisions in front of us. Do we continue fertility meds? Do we do another IUI procedure? Do we stop "trying" all together? Do we continue our adoption paperwork and try to adopt again? Do we just stop everything? We wanted to start our little family so much. There we were sitting in this big open field, waiting for an awesome fireworks display....kids running all around us...and me tears running down trying to take it all in and sending up silent prayers to God...asking for a sweet baby...
And here we are one year later...July 2008 was the month that we conceived Ren...he is now 3 1/2 months old and we could not imagine our lives with out this little miracle boy. God saw my tears and answered my prayers!
Here we are, that same field, exactly one year later! God is so wonderful to us!!!

5 comments:

Sarah J. said...

You are truly blessed and so is your little family! I know the pain of wanting a child and seeing families with their babies already in their arms was just too much to bear sometimes. I remember after my miscarriage, I cried almost every time I saw a baby...I too am blessed beyond measure and am grateful for your blessings as well. Love the pic... its awesome and so is our God!
Sending you love, ~ xoxoxo

Amy said...

What a sweet post, photo, and testament to God's faithfulness. So happy for your sweet family!

Doris said...

What a wonderful way to look back on the last year! I am overwhelmed with all the blessings you have! What a wonderful and compassionate God we serve! Stay tuned my dear sister the best is still yet to come. Keep walking in the F.O.G. (favor of God) and he will supply all your needs!

Nell said...

God is good! And you have a lovely little family.

Nell

Niki said...

Awe Nili! I am so happy for you!